says the little engine called "The Military Wife" :-)
As the impending deployment gets closer I am left wondering "Can I do it?" "Am I strong enough" And then today as I was driving home I got this overwhelming feeling of "I -can- do it, I really honestly can do it." I can't tell you -how- I'm going to do it, bc I don't know. All I know is that I can do it. It was a quiet whisper deep down. I kinda have to, My kids depend on me. But once this realization hit me now all I want to do is cry. One would think that coming to such a realization would make me happier, but it doesn't. I'm so so sad, because I don't want to do it.
I love my husband more now than ever. And the day he leaves it will feel like my heart is being ripped out. I so so so dread coming home to this empty house.
I just have to remember, I can do it. I have to do it. The year will pass, then he'll be home.
It'll just be me and my girls for a year. We'll go to the park, go swimming, watch all the chick flicks we want.
I always tell BD that I'm going to attach myself to his leg like a 2 yr old does when they don't want daddy to leave lol
I wish time would just stop.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
my passion
For a lot of years I thought I didn't have a passion in life, but now I believe I've found it. I love baking. I love the creativity of it, the many options to decorate and make. There are literally thousands of options.
I absolutely love baking and decorating cakes and cupcakes. They've gotta be my most favorite things in the world to bake. Cobblers are also fun. The many fruit combinations. I love it!
I've now moved onto stalking food blogs to find new ideas and recipes. Here's the greatest part, if I bake said desserts, I'm not nearly as inclined to eat them. Yayness! :) It also is so relaxing to me. Something about the smell of butter and sugar is so relaxing.
Today I checked out Pioneer Woman and got a few great ideas I want to try.
Someday I want to open my own bakery. Once we are in a place long enough for that dream to be able to happen...and I have tons of money :)
Back in Kansas there were a few really good dessert places and I've noticed there aren't many around here. Horrible..a Travesty I tell you. ha So maybe someday I'll come back here and open my own bakery, then the town will be filled with the lovely smells of sugar, butter, cream and cakey-goodness :) mmmmmmmMMMMMMMMM
Peace!
I absolutely love baking and decorating cakes and cupcakes. They've gotta be my most favorite things in the world to bake. Cobblers are also fun. The many fruit combinations. I love it!
I've now moved onto stalking food blogs to find new ideas and recipes. Here's the greatest part, if I bake said desserts, I'm not nearly as inclined to eat them. Yayness! :) It also is so relaxing to me. Something about the smell of butter and sugar is so relaxing.
Today I checked out Pioneer Woman and got a few great ideas I want to try.
Someday I want to open my own bakery. Once we are in a place long enough for that dream to be able to happen...and I have tons of money :)
Back in Kansas there were a few really good dessert places and I've noticed there aren't many around here. Horrible..a Travesty I tell you. ha So maybe someday I'll come back here and open my own bakery, then the town will be filled with the lovely smells of sugar, butter, cream and cakey-goodness :) mmmmmmmMMMMMMMMM
Peace!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Vinegar...My new best friend
I have discovered the wonders of Vinegar. Ya, ya, ya, I always knew about it, but only recently did I realize the wonders it can do for my home.
I have hardwood and tile floors throughout the house. I use Murphy's Oil Soap on the wood floors because they are old *Think 1950's, luckily they still look great* and need all the pampering they can get, but I hadn't quite found my niche with the tile floors, especially our den. It seemed that no matter what I used on it, it was always slightly sticky, not good in my world, until now, Hello Vinegar! I take a stockpot and boil water *yes, time consuming but the outcome is worth it* then dump it in my sink and add a few 'glugs' :-) of vinegar. O..M..G...My den floors look better than they ever have and no more sticky either! The den is also where the doggie beds are so I am paranoid of it smelling like dog. It makes it smell so fresh and clean down there afterwards, It does my OCD good :) hehe It's also not harmful to the animals, like some cleaners can be. Sure, theres a bit of a vinegar smell until it dries, but its not too bad.
Another trick is to put vinegar in your clothes softener department in your washer. It helps get all the odors out of the clothes. I wash all my sheets, towels, rugs and dog bedding that way. It helps them smell so fresh and clean. Like the day I bought them.
If anyone knows any more good Vinegar tricks lemme know :)
Happy Cleaning!!
I have hardwood and tile floors throughout the house. I use Murphy's Oil Soap on the wood floors because they are old *Think 1950's, luckily they still look great* and need all the pampering they can get, but I hadn't quite found my niche with the tile floors, especially our den. It seemed that no matter what I used on it, it was always slightly sticky, not good in my world, until now, Hello Vinegar! I take a stockpot and boil water *yes, time consuming but the outcome is worth it* then dump it in my sink and add a few 'glugs' :-) of vinegar. O..M..G...My den floors look better than they ever have and no more sticky either! The den is also where the doggie beds are so I am paranoid of it smelling like dog. It makes it smell so fresh and clean down there afterwards, It does my OCD good :) hehe It's also not harmful to the animals, like some cleaners can be. Sure, theres a bit of a vinegar smell until it dries, but its not too bad.
Another trick is to put vinegar in your clothes softener department in your washer. It helps get all the odors out of the clothes. I wash all my sheets, towels, rugs and dog bedding that way. It helps them smell so fresh and clean. Like the day I bought them.
If anyone knows any more good Vinegar tricks lemme know :)
Happy Cleaning!!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Murphys Law
What in the world is going on in my neck of the woods?!? I tell ya, Murphy's Law has hit my house like no other! If something isnt falling, its breaking, or spilling. Case in point: As I was pouring juice this morning the cereal box decided for some unknown reason to just tip over and knock juice all over the counter, me and my kitchen rug, that I had just washed 2 days ago. Why is juice so attracted to just washed objects.
Along with the lovely deployment stress *hello, nice to see you again*
Lillia is acting up, badly, and regressing a bit in the potty training area *whimper, I worked so very hard to get her here* I'm not dumb, I know its because she senses the changes and tension in the air. BD and I are desperatly trying hard to keep things normal for her. This is a new ball game for me, I never had a 2 1/2 yr old and 1 1/2 yr old while he's gone.
And last night, Murphy gave us the grand finale *I hope..please* Last deployment BD left 2 days before our anniversary, which freakin sucked. Yesterday he got his orders and he's once again, leaving within spitting * VERY SHORT spitting* distance of our anniversary. yes, I know, things change, but to see that date on the paper is just crushing. They can't put it off a week or more even would be lovely, so we're free and clear of anything important?? seriously Army!?? Why do III get cosmicly screwed 2 deployments in a row?? Yes, we are celebrating our anniversary on an earlier date, but..comeon...its still the fact of the matter of it would be nice to be together ON the day. It is so close to our anniversary that it COULD be helped, but it's not..as of yet. Just gimmie a break. This is also our 5 yr anniversary and on our wedding day we said we were going to renew our vows on our 5yr, which we decided awhile back we wouldn't do this year, and theres also a saying in military that a lot of couples in the military don't make it to 5 years, so It's a very important year for us. 3 deployments, 2 kids, 5 years. And BD and I are both having a bit of a pity party at the moment *we'll pick ourselves back up in a day or two and drive on like we always do* and this was just the icing on top of the cake.
My only consolation is that this is *hopefully* our last deployment..yes..you heard me right..last..deployment..ever. As of now we are ETSing in 2012. Bye Bye Army. And by the time BD gets home we shouldn't have another deployment. The Army has been good to us and gave us a great start in life, but its time for us to step out on our own now.
So bloggies, if any of you wanna chase off Murphy for a bit that would just be lovely :) And if you pray, please say a prayer for us!
As of now, Im looking forward to the marriage retreat and hopefully that'll give us the rest/recharge we need! 10 days!! Countdown time!
Love all my bloggies! :) *MUAHHHH*
Along with the lovely deployment stress *hello, nice to see you again*
Lillia is acting up, badly, and regressing a bit in the potty training area *whimper, I worked so very hard to get her here* I'm not dumb, I know its because she senses the changes and tension in the air. BD and I are desperatly trying hard to keep things normal for her. This is a new ball game for me, I never had a 2 1/2 yr old and 1 1/2 yr old while he's gone.
And last night, Murphy gave us the grand finale *I hope..please* Last deployment BD left 2 days before our anniversary, which freakin sucked. Yesterday he got his orders and he's once again, leaving within spitting * VERY SHORT spitting* distance of our anniversary. yes, I know, things change, but to see that date on the paper is just crushing. They can't put it off a week or more even would be lovely, so we're free and clear of anything important?? seriously Army!?? Why do III get cosmicly screwed 2 deployments in a row?? Yes, we are celebrating our anniversary on an earlier date, but..comeon...its still the fact of the matter of it would be nice to be together ON the day. It is so close to our anniversary that it COULD be helped, but it's not..as of yet. Just gimmie a break. This is also our 5 yr anniversary and on our wedding day we said we were going to renew our vows on our 5yr, which we decided awhile back we wouldn't do this year, and theres also a saying in military that a lot of couples in the military don't make it to 5 years, so It's a very important year for us. 3 deployments, 2 kids, 5 years. And BD and I are both having a bit of a pity party at the moment *we'll pick ourselves back up in a day or two and drive on like we always do* and this was just the icing on top of the cake.
My only consolation is that this is *hopefully* our last deployment..yes..you heard me right..last..deployment..ever. As of now we are ETSing in 2012. Bye Bye Army. And by the time BD gets home we shouldn't have another deployment. The Army has been good to us and gave us a great start in life, but its time for us to step out on our own now.
So bloggies, if any of you wanna chase off Murphy for a bit that would just be lovely :) And if you pray, please say a prayer for us!
As of now, Im looking forward to the marriage retreat and hopefully that'll give us the rest/recharge we need! 10 days!! Countdown time!
Love all my bloggies! :) *MUAHHHH*
Friday, April 16, 2010
Its the weekend
Yes it is!! and boy oh boy am I ready for it!!
BD is supposed to get off at 3 today so that'll be nice! I also have a pre deployment brief to go to today..BD doesn't know if he'll make it or not, so I may be going alone. Not that I have problems going places alone, bc I dont, lol, It's just easier in such an enviroment to have an additional person to help with the kids. Perhaps he'll get a lot done at the office and join me.
I think we'll play some WII tonight also. We got WII Resort Sports, its a blast!
Hopefully tomorrow it'll be nice so we can get some yard work done. Then Sunday is church.
Im thinkin for dinner tonight I'll make Lemon Pepper Chicken and stuffing...or Brocolli shrimp alfredo. hmmmmmmmmmm decisions decisions decisions
Well bloggie world..time for me to finish my liquid energy :) and shower so we can get to the store before the brief!
*MUAH*
BD is supposed to get off at 3 today so that'll be nice! I also have a pre deployment brief to go to today..BD doesn't know if he'll make it or not, so I may be going alone. Not that I have problems going places alone, bc I dont, lol, It's just easier in such an enviroment to have an additional person to help with the kids. Perhaps he'll get a lot done at the office and join me.
I think we'll play some WII tonight also. We got WII Resort Sports, its a blast!
Hopefully tomorrow it'll be nice so we can get some yard work done. Then Sunday is church.
Im thinkin for dinner tonight I'll make Lemon Pepper Chicken and stuffing...or Brocolli shrimp alfredo. hmmmmmmmmmm decisions decisions decisions
Well bloggie world..time for me to finish my liquid energy :) and shower so we can get to the store before the brief!
*MUAH*
Thursday, April 15, 2010
get aways
The last few days have been rough. The reality of Josh leaving has kicked in, My very good friend went back to Hawaii, and I've decided to stay here during the deployment, which brings on it's all new set of challenges.
and my children..my darling children. They have gotten into the "i am going to get into absolutely everything" phase, and the "I dont have to listen to a word you say" phase.
I am very excited though that we are definatly going to the Marriage retreat on April 30th. without the kids!!! I am so so excited. An overnight without the kids! woohoo I can't wait!!!! I am so looking forward to it
I am also looking forward to celebrating BD and I's anniversary over leave! 2-3 nights, all alone, without kids!! woohoo Maybe I'll finally make up the sleep deficit of the last 3 years lol We have never gone away for our anniversary, nor did we have a honeymoon. We barely had a wedding night :) lol *those of you close to me know -that- story lol*
I'm trying to keep positive and think about all the great things coming up and the special time BD and I will have.
So, I'm planning on being crafty..I know, shocking huh? I remember as a kid taking an orange and poking whole cloves all over it and it made a homemade room freshner and I loved it! It smelled so good! SOOO.. I have oranges, and I have cloves...Voila!! yes..simple..but my name and Crafty just dont go together, so this is quite the step for me :)
We're supposed to have leftovers for dinner.....I don't quit know if I'm feelin that though....*sigh* The thing is, for lunch I eat leftovers..daily...So the thought of leftovers again for dinner isnt too thrilling. I dunno what we'll have..but...my oranges await :)
and my children..my darling children. They have gotten into the "i am going to get into absolutely everything" phase, and the "I dont have to listen to a word you say" phase.
I am very excited though that we are definatly going to the Marriage retreat on April 30th. without the kids!!! I am so so excited. An overnight without the kids! woohoo I can't wait!!!! I am so looking forward to it
I am also looking forward to celebrating BD and I's anniversary over leave! 2-3 nights, all alone, without kids!! woohoo Maybe I'll finally make up the sleep deficit of the last 3 years lol We have never gone away for our anniversary, nor did we have a honeymoon. We barely had a wedding night :) lol *those of you close to me know -that- story lol*
I'm trying to keep positive and think about all the great things coming up and the special time BD and I will have.
So, I'm planning on being crafty..I know, shocking huh? I remember as a kid taking an orange and poking whole cloves all over it and it made a homemade room freshner and I loved it! It smelled so good! SOOO.. I have oranges, and I have cloves...Voila!! yes..simple..but my name and Crafty just dont go together, so this is quite the step for me :)
We're supposed to have leftovers for dinner.....I don't quit know if I'm feelin that though....*sigh* The thing is, for lunch I eat leftovers..daily...So the thought of leftovers again for dinner isnt too thrilling. I dunno what we'll have..but...my oranges await :)
Saturday, April 10, 2010
so..heres how my weekend has gone thusfar.
Yesterday, decided to be an awesome mom and took the kids to the park on the spur of the moment. well, lana climbed too far and got stuck on those play gym tower things, so I crawl up there, get her and stand up, which was my first problem, I failed to realize that above me, was another level of jungle gym-ness, and I hit my head..really hard, so I stumble down, all dizzy, feelin like my head was on fire. I almost called josh but didnt bc I knew he was busy and I felt semi-ok, minus the throbbing head and dizzynes..so get home, feed kids lunch and down for a nap they go, I end up falling asleep *weird for me* and when I wake up I couldn't see straight, noise hurt, light hurt...yaa kinda gave myself a mild concussion. I am feeling a bit better tonight, can see straight, just light and noise are horrible. I just wanna crawl in bed and pull the covers up and stay forever. which is why, at the moment, Im in the bedroom, on the bed, lights out, and blinds pulled.
annnnnnnnnnnnd today...We have to go buy all the stuff for BD's tough box for deployment. It sucks...very very much. I have to help my husband prepare to leave us..but I can't sit back and refuse to help, bc I can't let him leave without knowing he has everything he needs. so..If you happened to see a crazy chick, about to cry (and at some points crying) in the fan/TP/soap/deoderant aisles at the PX, that was me. You'd think after 2 deployments I wouldn't be bawling in the envelope section, but the moment I handed him that box of envelopes, I did indeed cry. I hated it. I hated every minute of it. And I guarentee you that in the next few days, when he gets out his bags and starts packing *yes, they pack weeks in advance* I will be hiding in the bedroom and crying.
I dread that day...I dread it with a passion. and there will only be more reminders to come.
This is earth shattering for me, this blog. Nobody knows the emotions I feel or how I'm doing bc I dont share it *in regards to deployment* I have rarely shared how I feel, and If I did, it was with very little info. I don't want people to pity me. I don't want people to feel sorry for me. Theres no reason too. Every job has its downfalls..this..is ours
Well bloggies..I think my eyes and brain have had all they can take.
*MUAH*
Yesterday, decided to be an awesome mom and took the kids to the park on the spur of the moment. well, lana climbed too far and got stuck on those play gym tower things, so I crawl up there, get her and stand up, which was my first problem, I failed to realize that above me, was another level of jungle gym-ness, and I hit my head..really hard, so I stumble down, all dizzy, feelin like my head was on fire. I almost called josh but didnt bc I knew he was busy and I felt semi-ok, minus the throbbing head and dizzynes..so get home, feed kids lunch and down for a nap they go, I end up falling asleep *weird for me* and when I wake up I couldn't see straight, noise hurt, light hurt...yaa kinda gave myself a mild concussion. I am feeling a bit better tonight, can see straight, just light and noise are horrible. I just wanna crawl in bed and pull the covers up and stay forever. which is why, at the moment, Im in the bedroom, on the bed, lights out, and blinds pulled.
annnnnnnnnnnnd today...We have to go buy all the stuff for BD's tough box for deployment. It sucks...very very much. I have to help my husband prepare to leave us..but I can't sit back and refuse to help, bc I can't let him leave without knowing he has everything he needs. so..If you happened to see a crazy chick, about to cry (and at some points crying) in the fan/TP/soap/deoderant aisles at the PX, that was me. You'd think after 2 deployments I wouldn't be bawling in the envelope section, but the moment I handed him that box of envelopes, I did indeed cry. I hated it. I hated every minute of it. And I guarentee you that in the next few days, when he gets out his bags and starts packing *yes, they pack weeks in advance* I will be hiding in the bedroom and crying.
I dread that day...I dread it with a passion. and there will only be more reminders to come.
This is earth shattering for me, this blog. Nobody knows the emotions I feel or how I'm doing bc I dont share it *in regards to deployment* I have rarely shared how I feel, and If I did, it was with very little info. I don't want people to pity me. I don't want people to feel sorry for me. Theres no reason too. Every job has its downfalls..this..is ours
Well bloggies..I think my eyes and brain have had all they can take.
*MUAH*
Thursday, April 8, 2010
what up??
so today was a pretty good day!
Was a looongg morning so took the kids to the mall and I went to Borders then we stopped at my -favorite- pizza place at the mall, Paolo's Pizza..O..M..G..YUM! I *heart* their pizza sooo much! I would eat their pizza everyday if I could..no..im not joking!
Then came home and the kids napped. and how lovely it was.
Now, heres my highlight, after lana got up she snuggled in bed with me. I was surfin online and so I just laid her down next to me and she laid there and snuggled for nearly 30 minutes...Lillia NEVER EVER snuggled so its Sooooo so nice to have a child that does. It was lovely!!
Then I went OCD on my kitchen counters :) Took everything off, cleaned all the stuff on the counters, cleaned the counters and stove. It looked so nice. Seriously, it brought joy to my heart. lol Then alas, it was time to make dinner, but, counters are still clean, sink has stuff in it,, but thats okay *refer to OCD post :P*
Now im waitin on BD to get home and we're gonna watch Billy Madison...he has never seen it..Shocking..I know! I was just as shocked as you are. :)
and..TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!! WOOHOOO Dunno what we'll do this weekend, but one things for sure...I'm fielding all of BD's work calls :) hehehehe
so today was a pretty good day!
Was a looongg morning so took the kids to the mall and I went to Borders then we stopped at my -favorite- pizza place at the mall, Paolo's Pizza..O..M..G..YUM! I *heart* their pizza sooo much! I would eat their pizza everyday if I could..no..im not joking!
Then came home and the kids napped. and how lovely it was.
Now, heres my highlight, after lana got up she snuggled in bed with me. I was surfin online and so I just laid her down next to me and she laid there and snuggled for nearly 30 minutes...Lillia NEVER EVER snuggled so its Sooooo so nice to have a child that does. It was lovely!!
Then I went OCD on my kitchen counters :) Took everything off, cleaned all the stuff on the counters, cleaned the counters and stove. It looked so nice. Seriously, it brought joy to my heart. lol Then alas, it was time to make dinner, but, counters are still clean, sink has stuff in it,, but thats okay *refer to OCD post :P*
Now im waitin on BD to get home and we're gonna watch Billy Madison...he has never seen it..Shocking..I know! I was just as shocked as you are. :)
and..TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!! WOOHOOO Dunno what we'll do this weekend, but one things for sure...I'm fielding all of BD's work calls :) hehehehe
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
D-Day
D-Day is creeping up on us...slowly but surely and there's a little girl on the inside of me jumping up and down screaming "no no no no no no no no no, this can't be, this can't be happening" then there's the outside me, who is calm, collected and when asked "how will you do it" I say "we'll be fine, no biggie"
The buildup is worse than the day he actually leaves. The day he leaves your numb and dead on the inside, then he leaves, and you get back in your car and you drive back home to a dark, cold, lonely house and you lose it. yes, I know the drill, I've done it 2 other times.
But the build up....thats worse, because everyone is on edge, anxious, packing to be done, goodbyes to be said, time to be spent as a family. And don't get me wrong, this doesn't start the day before...it starts months before.
And here it is, folks, the major pre deployment stressor...the distancing of yourself from your spouse and vice versa. You dont wanna be hugged or kissed anymore, their meer sight makes you wanna scream. And..When people ask, and I tell them this is the hardest, I get weird looks. but it is, You start distancing yourself bc it's gonna hurt like hell when they leave and by distancing yourself your brain makes you think that it won't hurt as bad, but us deployment veterns know that that is the worst thing you can do, because you are losing out on precious time together, precious memories. So you fight against it which is hard as hell too.
The 'good' thing about this being my 3rd is that we can see these signs, the distancing, the anger, ect and we can try to stop them and fight against them.
Now, let me tell you, I love my husband more than life itself. He's the peanut to my butter, the cherry to my sundae, the apple to my pie (lol) I look at him and know what hes thinking but around deployment him, him and I are at each others throats like nobody's business. We fight and argue about the dumbest things. And its all because of the..da.da.dummmmmmmm "deployment curse" lol I can gladly say though, that bc this is our 3rd deployment we know the signs, we know how each other is acting, we know the whole distancing routine and we're fighting it. This deployment won't get us. I promise you that.
And let me promise you something...That homecoming day will MORE than make up for every bit of pain and suffering you experienced before and during the deployment. That beautiful day. Time doesn't stop * which is good and bad* so it WILL end.
To get me through I have our last homecoming on video, and I most likely be watching that video daily while he's gone, to remind myself that it DOES end.
Dear Lord, Please protect my husband!!!!!
The buildup is worse than the day he actually leaves. The day he leaves your numb and dead on the inside, then he leaves, and you get back in your car and you drive back home to a dark, cold, lonely house and you lose it. yes, I know the drill, I've done it 2 other times.
But the build up....thats worse, because everyone is on edge, anxious, packing to be done, goodbyes to be said, time to be spent as a family. And don't get me wrong, this doesn't start the day before...it starts months before.
And here it is, folks, the major pre deployment stressor...the distancing of yourself from your spouse and vice versa. You dont wanna be hugged or kissed anymore, their meer sight makes you wanna scream. And..When people ask, and I tell them this is the hardest, I get weird looks. but it is, You start distancing yourself bc it's gonna hurt like hell when they leave and by distancing yourself your brain makes you think that it won't hurt as bad, but us deployment veterns know that that is the worst thing you can do, because you are losing out on precious time together, precious memories. So you fight against it which is hard as hell too.
The 'good' thing about this being my 3rd is that we can see these signs, the distancing, the anger, ect and we can try to stop them and fight against them.
Now, let me tell you, I love my husband more than life itself. He's the peanut to my butter, the cherry to my sundae, the apple to my pie (lol) I look at him and know what hes thinking but around deployment him, him and I are at each others throats like nobody's business. We fight and argue about the dumbest things. And its all because of the..da.da.dummmmmmmm "deployment curse" lol I can gladly say though, that bc this is our 3rd deployment we know the signs, we know how each other is acting, we know the whole distancing routine and we're fighting it. This deployment won't get us. I promise you that.
And let me promise you something...That homecoming day will MORE than make up for every bit of pain and suffering you experienced before and during the deployment. That beautiful day. Time doesn't stop * which is good and bad* so it WILL end.
To get me through I have our last homecoming on video, and I most likely be watching that video daily while he's gone, to remind myself that it DOES end.
Dear Lord, Please protect my husband!!!!!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
my lil bit of OCD
Alright. I admit it. I have a bit of OCD. I'm trying to come to terms with it, Ive fought it for years but I just can't fight it anymore.
We have wood/tile floors throughout our whole house, which I love, but that is also the thorn in my side. I cannot stand to feel any piece of anything under my feet, and I don't wear shoes, I hate shoes, they make my feet cramped, so inside the house I never ever have shoes on, so that means I can feel -everything- and I swear, I want to pull my hair out! Its especially bad when I have just swept and somehow something doesn't get swept up and I step on it, OMG, I swear, it makes me so crazy I can feel myself turning grey! lol
With 2 kids, 2 dogs, plus a husband I am sweeping at least twice a day.
Another one of my OCD issues is my kitchen counters. I cannot stand to have my kitchen counters cluttered. Stuff on them is okay as long as its sitting nicely, dishes are even okay, my sink piled with dishes is okay, just so long as my counters aren't cluttered with stuff. Stuff that isn't kitchen stuff.
Unfinished projects is another. Right now I have a window in my diningroom thats 1/2 grey 1/2 white and we are repainting all the trim white, and we ran out of paint 2 weeks ago and have been so busy we haven't finished it. That window is driving me BONKERS. Luckily I'm not looking at it much so it doesn't bother me as bad, but...now that I've put it in writing...Im gonna have to find -something- to cover it with so I dont have to look it anymore lol
If something is bugging me internally, and I vocalize it, I'm -going- to have to find a way to fix it or else it will bug me to no end.
so yes, I can keep my OCD in check...as long as I don't say anything out loud! lol
so...on that note.. Laundry is calling and I gotta start lunch for the princesses!
much love *MUAH*
We have wood/tile floors throughout our whole house, which I love, but that is also the thorn in my side. I cannot stand to feel any piece of anything under my feet, and I don't wear shoes, I hate shoes, they make my feet cramped, so inside the house I never ever have shoes on, so that means I can feel -everything- and I swear, I want to pull my hair out! Its especially bad when I have just swept and somehow something doesn't get swept up and I step on it, OMG, I swear, it makes me so crazy I can feel myself turning grey! lol
With 2 kids, 2 dogs, plus a husband I am sweeping at least twice a day.
Another one of my OCD issues is my kitchen counters. I cannot stand to have my kitchen counters cluttered. Stuff on them is okay as long as its sitting nicely, dishes are even okay, my sink piled with dishes is okay, just so long as my counters aren't cluttered with stuff. Stuff that isn't kitchen stuff.
Unfinished projects is another. Right now I have a window in my diningroom thats 1/2 grey 1/2 white and we are repainting all the trim white, and we ran out of paint 2 weeks ago and have been so busy we haven't finished it. That window is driving me BONKERS. Luckily I'm not looking at it much so it doesn't bother me as bad, but...now that I've put it in writing...Im gonna have to find -something- to cover it with so I dont have to look it anymore lol
If something is bugging me internally, and I vocalize it, I'm -going- to have to find a way to fix it or else it will bug me to no end.
so yes, I can keep my OCD in check...as long as I don't say anything out loud! lol
so...on that note.. Laundry is calling and I gotta start lunch for the princesses!
much love *MUAH*
Monday, April 5, 2010
Great Easter Weekend
Good Morning bloggers!!!!
After a crazy, busy, fun weekend I'm baaaacckkk. :-)
Had a great weekend! Love my friends, love my family! and to top it off, got our Escrow overage check. YAY! although it wasnt as much as last year, by a lot, it was still something. It's like a little surprise in the mail, bc I always forget about it each year. That is one of the high points of owning a house.
Now, the annoyance of my weekend,
1. Pvt's who text MY phone at 1030pm to talk about work with my husband the NIGHT before Easter
2. Same Pvt who is NOT supposed to text my phone bc in the past he's taken it upon himself to mouth off towards me...... multiple times (Boy, has basic changed or WHAT?)
anyone know how to block a number on a cell phone? lol one more time and he gets an earful from me and not 'the system'
anywho, one more day with my husband before work starts again and let's hope work doesn't come-a-callin.
Later peeps! *muah*
After a crazy, busy, fun weekend I'm baaaacckkk. :-)
Had a great weekend! Love my friends, love my family! and to top it off, got our Escrow overage check. YAY! although it wasnt as much as last year, by a lot, it was still something. It's like a little surprise in the mail, bc I always forget about it each year. That is one of the high points of owning a house.
Now, the annoyance of my weekend,
1. Pvt's who text MY phone at 1030pm to talk about work with my husband the NIGHT before Easter
2. Same Pvt who is NOT supposed to text my phone bc in the past he's taken it upon himself to mouth off towards me...... multiple times (Boy, has basic changed or WHAT?)
anyone know how to block a number on a cell phone? lol one more time and he gets an earful from me and not 'the system'
anywho, one more day with my husband before work starts again and let's hope work doesn't come-a-callin.
Later peeps! *muah*
Friday, April 2, 2010
All about ME!
Hey bloggies!
Yesterday I took a day for ME!! and it felt great! I highlighted my hair, got a new nail polish and did my toes and fingernails, bought a new shirt, and bracelet! It felt so good to go all out like that for me.
My hair looks great btw! I'm pretty proud of myself.
Then last night we took the girls to the flashlight easter egg hunt along with our friends and their 2 girls! We had a great time!!
Even got a few people with April Fools' jokes. I don't normally do April Fools jokes, ever. But yesterday I was havin such a great day I decided too.
and then theres today, as great as yesterday was, I'm annoyed today. Nothing really major, just..annoyed with little things.
BD had to go into work this morning on his 'day off', I have -tons- to do with Easter just a couple days away, my throat is scratchy and my ears feel itchy *Ive never had my ears feel itchy, but, they do today and I dunno why, and no, I'm not dirty, lol*, I have been putting off paying the bills for 3 days now, bc I just haven't had time to do it and today I HAVE to get it done, the grass needs mowed and we don't have a mower, I -have- to do the Cenus form *Like I really need ONE more thing to do..seriously?!?!!*, I gotta bake 3 things for various Easter celebrations. Anyone that knows me, knows that when I bake, I go all out, so its quite the process. It's not just slicing cookie dough from a roll,I do LOVE baking though. errands to run and finish the girls Easter baskets.
And I don't wanna do any of it. I wanna crawl in bed and just sleep! I sure hope BD gets home soon!
Yesterday I took a day for ME!! and it felt great! I highlighted my hair, got a new nail polish and did my toes and fingernails, bought a new shirt, and bracelet! It felt so good to go all out like that for me.
My hair looks great btw! I'm pretty proud of myself.
Then last night we took the girls to the flashlight easter egg hunt along with our friends and their 2 girls! We had a great time!!
Even got a few people with April Fools' jokes. I don't normally do April Fools jokes, ever. But yesterday I was havin such a great day I decided too.
and then theres today, as great as yesterday was, I'm annoyed today. Nothing really major, just..annoyed with little things.
BD had to go into work this morning on his 'day off', I have -tons- to do with Easter just a couple days away, my throat is scratchy and my ears feel itchy *Ive never had my ears feel itchy, but, they do today and I dunno why, and no, I'm not dirty, lol*, I have been putting off paying the bills for 3 days now, bc I just haven't had time to do it and today I HAVE to get it done, the grass needs mowed and we don't have a mower, I -have- to do the Cenus form *Like I really need ONE more thing to do..seriously?!?!!*, I gotta bake 3 things for various Easter celebrations. Anyone that knows me, knows that when I bake, I go all out, so its quite the process. It's not just slicing cookie dough from a roll,I do LOVE baking though. errands to run and finish the girls Easter baskets.
And I don't wanna do any of it. I wanna crawl in bed and just sleep! I sure hope BD gets home soon!
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