2011 has been an insane ride. In one word: Rollercoaster.
I've been as high as I think I could be and as low as I think I could be.
I am so thankful for a new baby on the way...a boy nonetheless. So Thankful that my string of lows have turned into some highs.
I dont know what 2012 will bring... Baby, New President maybe, The end of the only life I've known while being married..the Army. I'm going to have to learn how to be a civilian, which scares the bajeeves outta me by the way.
I don't know where we'll end up, I don't know where we'll go, I don't even know if we'll have an income. I don't know where we will live. I know nothing about what our lives will be like in 6 months. Again, scares the bajeeves outta me.
I do know that I'll have my husband, my two precious girls and my handsome, new little man and I hope and pray that I will finally be close to family. Close enough to call my mom when I'm sick and need help instead of just dealing with it. Close enough to send my kids to grandma and grandpas for a night. Close enough to invite them over for weekly dinners.
There will be no party tonight..no bubbly..I don't even know if I can stay awake until midnight but 2012 here we come!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Pregnancy, Orangutans, and vibrating toothbrushes
I never claimed to be the smartest while pregnant. I tend to lose all my memory and sense while pregnant and this didn't start happening until the second either.
Like with Little girl, I was walking through the grocery store and saw a certain fruit, decided to test the ripeness of said fruit to see if I wanted one and ended up sticking my finger through the fruit..which was gross. So I call my platonic husband (Whose husband was deployed also) and told her that it was soo gross because my finger had just gone through an Orangutan.. To which she was very quiet and said "you stuck your finger in an orangutan???) And I said "yah, ya know, those fruits, like a watermelon but not really, they are yellow)............."You mean a Cantaloupe??" ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..yyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa a Cantaloupe.
(I still haven't lived that down........)
Let's see...I forget my address quite often. Literally had to get out a bill the other day to see what my address is...
And the other day I was brushing my teeth, I have one of those really cool battery powered vibratey toothbrushes, I was just brushing away when I saw a smudge in the bathroom sink. So I took my hand off the toothbrush and let it just rest in my mouth, teeth shut, in my molar area so that I could use my hand to wipe away the smudge and as I'm wiping said smudge my head starts spinning, my vision is blurry, and I feel myself getting dizzy and I start freaking out thinking "Oh my gosh, I'm dying! This is what a brain aneurysm feels like, I really am dying, I can't die yet!!!" ( I was honestly very scared)...........until I realized that it was my vibratey toothbrush vibrating my head because it was still 'resting' in my mouth.............
I'm done having kids.
Like with Little girl, I was walking through the grocery store and saw a certain fruit, decided to test the ripeness of said fruit to see if I wanted one and ended up sticking my finger through the fruit..which was gross. So I call my platonic husband (Whose husband was deployed also) and told her that it was soo gross because my finger had just gone through an Orangutan.. To which she was very quiet and said "you stuck your finger in an orangutan???) And I said "yah, ya know, those fruits, like a watermelon but not really, they are yellow)............."You mean a Cantaloupe??" ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..yyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa a Cantaloupe.
(I still haven't lived that down........)
Let's see...I forget my address quite often. Literally had to get out a bill the other day to see what my address is...
And the other day I was brushing my teeth, I have one of those really cool battery powered vibratey toothbrushes, I was just brushing away when I saw a smudge in the bathroom sink. So I took my hand off the toothbrush and let it just rest in my mouth, teeth shut, in my molar area so that I could use my hand to wipe away the smudge and as I'm wiping said smudge my head starts spinning, my vision is blurry, and I feel myself getting dizzy and I start freaking out thinking "Oh my gosh, I'm dying! This is what a brain aneurysm feels like, I really am dying, I can't die yet!!!" ( I was honestly very scared)...........until I realized that it was my vibratey toothbrush vibrating my head because it was still 'resting' in my mouth.............
I'm done having kids.
New year, changes, and an announcement
It's all over and done. Time to put away the tree, the lights, the decorations..Christmas is over and what a Christmas we had! It was chalked full of excitement, stress, and chaos at every moment, but wonderful.
The beginning on the year is a big turning point for us. New baby just a few months away and then we are uprooting our lives, doing a complete 180 and saying Goodbye to our time in the Army. I am so mixed about that, I know it's what's best but I am so mixed. This has been my 'family' the last 8 years. We have no job, no clue where we are going, and will have 3 kids to care for. Many other things will be taking place in the next few months and I'm trusting it is all for the best.
We found out 2 days before Christmas that we are having a little BOY!
I cannot believe it!! The past 19 weeks I 'felt' boy but I honestly thought it would be a girl, why don't I listen to myself?? When we saw those boy bits I was shocked...I still am shocked. What am I going to do with a boy?? I didn't realize how badly I wanted a boy, for Hubs. For him to have a son. A boy. I still can't believe it. Blue and trucks and sports. Little girl is already saying "beebee bubba" Big girl doesn't say much, I think she's still a little disgruntled that it's not a girl. haha Next thing on our list is to make our registry. After 2 girls I'm saying "blue?...whats that?" haha
I got spoiled rotten this Christmas. I didn't deserve it all!
Here's to a New Year that brings So so many changes!!
The beginning on the year is a big turning point for us. New baby just a few months away and then we are uprooting our lives, doing a complete 180 and saying Goodbye to our time in the Army. I am so mixed about that, I know it's what's best but I am so mixed. This has been my 'family' the last 8 years. We have no job, no clue where we are going, and will have 3 kids to care for. Many other things will be taking place in the next few months and I'm trusting it is all for the best.
We found out 2 days before Christmas that we are having a little BOY!
I cannot believe it!! The past 19 weeks I 'felt' boy but I honestly thought it would be a girl, why don't I listen to myself?? When we saw those boy bits I was shocked...I still am shocked. What am I going to do with a boy?? I didn't realize how badly I wanted a boy, for Hubs. For him to have a son. A boy. I still can't believe it. Blue and trucks and sports. Little girl is already saying "beebee bubba" Big girl doesn't say much, I think she's still a little disgruntled that it's not a girl. haha Next thing on our list is to make our registry. After 2 girls I'm saying "blue?...whats that?" haha
I got spoiled rotten this Christmas. I didn't deserve it all!
Here's to a New Year that brings So so many changes!!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Christmas is about giving
We did something a few days ago we have never done before. We gave money to a man on the side of the street, they stand around at nearly every corner here. Why? I'm not sure. Because it felt right, because his sign was ledgible and was gramatically correct, because he looked truely greatful, because everytime someone gave him money he made the cross sign and kissed it, because he claimed to not smoke or drink? I'm not exactly sure why we did it, we've never done anything like that before, ever, it just felt like we should. So we did.
I didn't think much about it until hubs put something on his facebook, as that was so unlike us to do that and the responses astounded me. Angered me, saddened me. Even today, after hubs deleted it from his facebook because of the responses it still bothers me. These people not even knowing whether we gave me $1, $5, $20, or $40. After seeing what people said I'm GLAD we gave him the amount we did.
We got the following responses:
Good job, now he'll go buy booze
He'll still be a bum, even with the money
Great, now they'll all take advantage of you
That's good I guess, but he was probably lying
and so forth. There were a few people who didn't say anyting rude or against what we did but the majority did. This time of the year it saddened me to see so many people, so many people who I thought were friends with such a stingy attitude.
Here's the bottom line, it was a GIFT. We WANTED to do it. What he did with it is out of my hands. So what if he decieved us? So what if he did buy booze? That absolutely does not affect us or our lives. We did what our hearts told us. We didn't NEED that money, but he might have and if he did I hope it brightened his day, his week even.
It's Christmas time. Isn't Christmas about giving? How does him, possibly, not using the money "right" (when you give a gift you can't specify how someone uses it so I dont know that there is a "right" but whatever) How does that affect me? It DOESN'T. It doesn't affect me at all. We gave the money and followed our hearts. If he took that money and blew his nose on it, so be it. I honestly don't care. If he lied then that is on him. Not me.
When did Christmas become about how much I can get, rather than Giving???
I didn't think much about it until hubs put something on his facebook, as that was so unlike us to do that and the responses astounded me. Angered me, saddened me. Even today, after hubs deleted it from his facebook because of the responses it still bothers me. These people not even knowing whether we gave me $1, $5, $20, or $40. After seeing what people said I'm GLAD we gave him the amount we did.
We got the following responses:
Good job, now he'll go buy booze
He'll still be a bum, even with the money
Great, now they'll all take advantage of you
That's good I guess, but he was probably lying
and so forth. There were a few people who didn't say anyting rude or against what we did but the majority did. This time of the year it saddened me to see so many people, so many people who I thought were friends with such a stingy attitude.
Here's the bottom line, it was a GIFT. We WANTED to do it. What he did with it is out of my hands. So what if he decieved us? So what if he did buy booze? That absolutely does not affect us or our lives. We did what our hearts told us. We didn't NEED that money, but he might have and if he did I hope it brightened his day, his week even.
It's Christmas time. Isn't Christmas about giving? How does him, possibly, not using the money "right" (when you give a gift you can't specify how someone uses it so I dont know that there is a "right" but whatever) How does that affect me? It DOESN'T. It doesn't affect me at all. We gave the money and followed our hearts. If he took that money and blew his nose on it, so be it. I honestly don't care. If he lied then that is on him. Not me.
When did Christmas become about how much I can get, rather than Giving???
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Tuesday's 10..a day late
1. Sorry. I was too tired to think of 10 things yesterday.. too tired and feeling way to pregnant.
2. TOMORROW, TOMORROW I LOVE YA, TOMORROW, YOU'RE ONLY A DAY AWAYYYYY. OMG, I can't believe we find out what LT is tomorrow!! Of course, we aren't tellin till Christmas though..bwahahahahahaha
3. I had cheetos and icecream for dinner last night. It was incredible
4. Christmas is 4 days away!!
5. I still have so much baking to do..yikes.
6. I didn't want to make dinner last night, but did anyways, Taco Pizza... I accidentally burnt the crap out of it. Lesson learned: Don't cook when you aren't feelin it.
7. Hubs and the kids ate the middle 'not so burnt' part and I had cheetos.
8. I *heart* cheetos
9. After this I'm going to shower and then get busy...I swear.
10. I love it that hubs is working 1/2 days until the new year.
2. TOMORROW, TOMORROW I LOVE YA, TOMORROW, YOU'RE ONLY A DAY AWAYYYYY. OMG, I can't believe we find out what LT is tomorrow!! Of course, we aren't tellin till Christmas though..bwahahahahahaha
3. I had cheetos and icecream for dinner last night. It was incredible
4. Christmas is 4 days away!!
5. I still have so much baking to do..yikes.
6. I didn't want to make dinner last night, but did anyways, Taco Pizza... I accidentally burnt the crap out of it. Lesson learned: Don't cook when you aren't feelin it.
7. Hubs and the kids ate the middle 'not so burnt' part and I had cheetos.
8. I *heart* cheetos
9. After this I'm going to shower and then get busy...I swear.
10. I love it that hubs is working 1/2 days until the new year.
Monday, December 19, 2011
The War Is Over
http://news.yahoo.com/last-us-troops-leave-iraq-war-ends-043431802.html
The War is over. I can remember watching on Tv in my bedroom the 'Beginning' of the war. The day it began. March 20, 2003. Little did I know how much my life would intertwine with this war and how deeply it would affect me and my, then, future children. I had no clue. The last thing I ever thought was that I would marry a soldier. I remember sitting on my bed, it was a Wednesday night, watching the footage on Tv. I remember it very vividly to this day.
Thousands of lives lost, thousands injured, thousands changed forever. Mentally, physically, emotionally. I know so many people who were changed. Some gave the ultimate sacrifice, Some injured outwardly, some changed inwardly. I can't help but remember those who lost their life. Especially one, inparticular, a young man I knew from back home, a young man who wasn't just an Army friend, a young man whom I spent time with him and his sisters before I was ever an Army wife. It hits close to home.
Here I am, almost 9 years later, my husband has give 2 years of his life to the Iraq war, I've given up my husband for 2 years.
May we never forget those that gave their lives and those injured. Also, never forget those who were changed inside and bare no physical reminders of the war. For many who served and came home the war still goes on.
Even though the war is over let's not forget our troops. Brave heros that went and did their job. I can honestly say I don't know one soldier who would say they regret serving.
The War is over. I can remember watching on Tv in my bedroom the 'Beginning' of the war. The day it began. March 20, 2003. Little did I know how much my life would intertwine with this war and how deeply it would affect me and my, then, future children. I had no clue. The last thing I ever thought was that I would marry a soldier. I remember sitting on my bed, it was a Wednesday night, watching the footage on Tv. I remember it very vividly to this day.
Thousands of lives lost, thousands injured, thousands changed forever. Mentally, physically, emotionally. I know so many people who were changed. Some gave the ultimate sacrifice, Some injured outwardly, some changed inwardly. I can't help but remember those who lost their life. Especially one, inparticular, a young man I knew from back home, a young man who wasn't just an Army friend, a young man whom I spent time with him and his sisters before I was ever an Army wife. It hits close to home.
Here I am, almost 9 years later, my husband has give 2 years of his life to the Iraq war, I've given up my husband for 2 years.
May we never forget those that gave their lives and those injured. Also, never forget those who were changed inside and bare no physical reminders of the war. For many who served and came home the war still goes on.
Even though the war is over let's not forget our troops. Brave heros that went and did their job. I can honestly say I don't know one soldier who would say they regret serving.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Happy Birthday Santa Baby!
Baby girl,
You are 3 today! I can't believe it! Where does time go?
You have made the last 3 years so much fun. You're mommies girl. Ever since you were born you have been stuck to my hip, which made it very difficult when your dad was gone. You're ornery, funny, and oh so sweet, but girl, do you have a temper!
I can't imagine my life without you in it. I wasn't expecting to be pregnant with you but, my dear, you were the best surprise ever and a wonderful addition to our family.
I love hearing you say "mommy" and "love you" Even now, your favorite place to be is on mommies lap while I scratch your back. I love all your little hugs and kisses. I love having a little Santa baby who walks around saying "ho ho ho"
I love you more than I could ever tell you! You are such an amazing, beautiful, wonderful addition to our family!!
The past 3 years have gone by so fast. Soon you'll be going to school.
My sweet, precious one; how did you go from this:
To this:
so very, very quickly!
I love you, my little girl!
Love always and forever!!
mommy
You are 3 today! I can't believe it! Where does time go?
You have made the last 3 years so much fun. You're mommies girl. Ever since you were born you have been stuck to my hip, which made it very difficult when your dad was gone. You're ornery, funny, and oh so sweet, but girl, do you have a temper!
I can't imagine my life without you in it. I wasn't expecting to be pregnant with you but, my dear, you were the best surprise ever and a wonderful addition to our family.
I love hearing you say "mommy" and "love you" Even now, your favorite place to be is on mommies lap while I scratch your back. I love all your little hugs and kisses. I love having a little Santa baby who walks around saying "ho ho ho"
I love you more than I could ever tell you! You are such an amazing, beautiful, wonderful addition to our family!!
The past 3 years have gone by so fast. Soon you'll be going to school.
My sweet, precious one; how did you go from this:
To this:
so very, very quickly!
I love you, my little girl!
Love always and forever!!
mommy
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