Ebbs and Flows

Life is so funny.  We can't expect life to be fabulous all the time. It's not realistic.  Life ebbs and flows and there are good times and bad times.  Times when you can't be happier.  Times when all goes your way and things look amazing. Your outlook on life is wonderful!

Then there are times when you are just tired.  Where it seems that at every corner there is something there to smack you around.  There are times when you spend weeks caring for sick people and then being sick yourself.  There are times when you get disheartening and sad news about a family member you love deeply.  Times when your special needs child gets -another- piece of medical equipment and while that equipment makes life easier, it helps him, and  it frees up at least 80 minutes of your day everyday, it also is -another- piece of equipment and -another- reminder that things are different and different sometimes makes you wanna cry.   Then it snows again and you slip and slide through town praying nobody hits your car because at this point you can't handle a car wreck.  And numerous other things that just make you feel like you are shoveling in a snow storm.

When push comes to shove what do you do?  You can't just quit. You can't just say "I'm done. I give up" because the sun rises again the next day.  So what do you do?

You cling to the little things. You hold it close to your heart when your oldest says "I Love you to infinity and beyond TWICE"   You savor the smell of your youngest child as he wraps his little arms around your neck to hug you.  You watch a completely girlie movie and eat chocolate cookies even though it is your exercise night you say forget it because cookies and girlie movies make you happy.   You cling to your husband as he holds you and lets you cry buckets of tears and cry that you cannot lose someone else you love dearly and you're thankful that your husband is actually here.

You take the day step by step, hour by hour, and know that this rough time can't possibly last forever.