There are some days when I'm rock star stay at home mom. Then there are some days when I want to run out my front door screaming...heck, I wouldn't even have to scream. Can I just run away?!?! Today is one of those days. It is 7:46pm. I have one in bed and two still up. Disobeying.
Today started wonderfully. I had some peace this morning..coffee in... even got the kitchen cleaned up and refrigerator cleaned and scrubbed out. Then it all went downhill...
Ya see.. 3 days ago my otherwise amazing husband gave our 2 year old fiber powder in a drink.. well.. it worked. It worked to the point where my 2 year old now has the mother of all rashes due to the affects of said fiber powder. So today has been a cycle of change diaper/ medicine/scream/run from mom/change diaper/medicine/scream/run from mom/high pitched wailing/ changing of diaper/bath/screaming/medicine/screaming/more screaming/diaper. Let's also add into the equation that he can't talk so before the rash got really bad and red this evening I didn't even know what was wrong... Had he been able to tell me what hurt I could have started meds sooner. But that didn't happen. So now I'm paying for that.
It's also consisted of two little girls who have apparently forgotten how to obey/what to obey/when to obey/and WHY they should obey and have challenged absolutely everything I have said today. They've also torn apart their rooms.. Their curtains are down.. the closet is torn apart.. The lights on their beds have been ripped off and are dangling.. .I didn't get a chance to fix those yet either.
It's consisted of running out of dish soap and between diapers and disobeying girls a trip to the store to get more hasn't happened. Heck, I haven't even showered or gotten dressed yet today.
It's consisted of a husband who left at 5:30am and won't be home until 9:30pm..or it could be later. So the dishes in my sink will probably have to sit there until tomorrow whenever I get myself and three kids to the store because me going to the store at 9:30-10pm when my husband gets home just isn't going to happen.
It's consisted of cracker crumbs and popcorn kernels mashed into the carpet..that I had to clean up in the midst of all this.
It's consisted of my 7 year, God Bless her, trying to be helpful and getting her brother crackers while he was having a screaming fit..Normally she does so well at doing such a task. Today............... Today my counter is covered in broken crackers. The kitchen floor is covered in mashed crackers because the crackers fell and broke all over the place while she was getting them. And this was after she had cleaned them up. So now the mess is waiting on me.
It is now 8pm... I still have two up... and the 2 year old has now decided to wage a nighttime bed battle. Because, ya see, I did need this to happen tonight of all nights.
I'd love a shower. At this rate that won't be happening. I'd love to walk outside for 5 minutes for some air but at this point, I don't know that I trust the little people in this house enough to do that.
I'm close to tears. Dangerously close. But I know if I cry then bedtime will be delayed even longer.
I'd like to have my husband home to help me clean up these cracker crumbs, to run and get me soap, to give me a reprieve so I can go outside for 5 minutes.
I have laundry in the washer... wet. I have laundry in the dryer...wrinkling... I have clean laundry in the basket..wrinkling.. oh yah..and the hampers are full because I had just started laundry when everything went crazy.
Today... Being a stay at home mom isn't much fun.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Update on Wesley The BIG TWO!!
Hey all! It's July!! July is Cleft and Craniofacial Awareness and Prevention Month!!! YAY for our month!! "Our" color is PURPLE!! I so want to get one of those purple ribbons for my car! I love advocating for my son!! I thought I would take a moment to update quickly on Wesley. There are some things that have been going on and I not only want to inform and educate everyone but also use this as a diary of sorts for our boy to read one day.
Wesley turned 2 a couple months ago! He is ornery, BUSY, fun, silly, and FEISTY! He LOOVES his mama and will stop what he's doing to come over and give me a hug or a kiss. I love it! Love my boy so so so much!! I am so so thankful God gave Wesley to ME!! I'd be so stinking jealous if He had given him to another mommy!!
Wesley has major speech delays. Honestly.. There hasn't been much progress in the last year. He says one word sentences. He signs. And he makes "Sounds" As his mother I can articulate and understand his sounds but others cannot. His main words are "mama" "dada" (Gaga), "Cracker" "Yuck" "ma" (For grandma) and "papa" That is about to extent of it. He does have many other sounds and signs he uses so is somewhat able to communicate. We are at a standstill. We aren't sure why he isn't progressing. His Speech therapist doesn't know and we don't know. It breaks my heart. The thought has been thrown around that he may have some sort of nerve damage but we just aren't sure. He's in speech therapy once a week. He loves his Jo!!
We have a few different avenues we are going to try here in the next few months. We are going to look into a more in dept hearing test just to rule out any hearing issues. He's had standard tests done but I feel like we should look deeper into that. Also, new tubes will probably be happening in the next few months. The ones he has in now have been in for just about 2 years now, which is a really long time for tubes.
We are also going to look into possibly starting private speech therapy along with the therapy he is already getting.
Other than that we just don't know what is going on. It's heartbreaking as a mother. There were a few days when all I could do was cry. I felt helpless. I felt scared. I felt like I was doing something wrong. What was I not getting!? We cannot give up though. Cognitively he's above average for his age. He's such a smart little boy. He understands exactly what we say and what we mean.
Socially... we are working on it. He has bad anxiety and doesn't like new people. It's tiring as a mom. I can see that he is slowly -mayyybe- coming out of that. I'm seeing some glimmer of hope that he may be trying to break through that. I really hope so. We don't have babysitters, besides our parents, he doesn't do any other form of daycare as he would just scream and melt all over the place...that is if I could pry him off of me long enough to leave.
I thank God every day for my boy. For everything he has taught me in the last 2 years. For how he's helped me grow into the mother I am.
Wesley turned 2 a couple months ago! He is ornery, BUSY, fun, silly, and FEISTY! He LOOVES his mama and will stop what he's doing to come over and give me a hug or a kiss. I love it! Love my boy so so so much!! I am so so thankful God gave Wesley to ME!! I'd be so stinking jealous if He had given him to another mommy!!
Wesley has major speech delays. Honestly.. There hasn't been much progress in the last year. He says one word sentences. He signs. And he makes "Sounds" As his mother I can articulate and understand his sounds but others cannot. His main words are "mama" "dada" (Gaga), "Cracker" "Yuck" "ma" (For grandma) and "papa" That is about to extent of it. He does have many other sounds and signs he uses so is somewhat able to communicate. We are at a standstill. We aren't sure why he isn't progressing. His Speech therapist doesn't know and we don't know. It breaks my heart. The thought has been thrown around that he may have some sort of nerve damage but we just aren't sure. He's in speech therapy once a week. He loves his Jo!!
We have a few different avenues we are going to try here in the next few months. We are going to look into a more in dept hearing test just to rule out any hearing issues. He's had standard tests done but I feel like we should look deeper into that. Also, new tubes will probably be happening in the next few months. The ones he has in now have been in for just about 2 years now, which is a really long time for tubes.
We are also going to look into possibly starting private speech therapy along with the therapy he is already getting.
Other than that we just don't know what is going on. It's heartbreaking as a mother. There were a few days when all I could do was cry. I felt helpless. I felt scared. I felt like I was doing something wrong. What was I not getting!? We cannot give up though. Cognitively he's above average for his age. He's such a smart little boy. He understands exactly what we say and what we mean.
Socially... we are working on it. He has bad anxiety and doesn't like new people. It's tiring as a mom. I can see that he is slowly -mayyybe- coming out of that. I'm seeing some glimmer of hope that he may be trying to break through that. I really hope so. We don't have babysitters, besides our parents, he doesn't do any other form of daycare as he would just scream and melt all over the place...that is if I could pry him off of me long enough to leave.
I thank God every day for my boy. For everything he has taught me in the last 2 years. For how he's helped me grow into the mother I am.
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